get yourself together, shake shake shake shake shake

i miss dancing.

i miss the music, the dim rooms with coloured lights beaming overhead, turning people's faces blue, green, purple, yellow. the incredible feeling of just letting yourself GO to the likes of ratatat, the rapture, the yeah yeah yeahs, michael jackson, the cure. people dressed amazingly well, a cloud of smoke hanging over everyone out on the balcony. the feeling of sweat drying on your face as soon as you step outside. i miss going crazy with my friends.

i miss romance, i really miss the feeling of holding hands, feeling the distinct touch of the warm dry skin of a boy i'm really into. that's one of my favourites. kissing in cars, being unable to fall asleep in the same bed because it's so damn hard to fall asleep next to someone else, but enjoying staying awake silently together.

goddammit.